superhero week is going awesome! we’ve made logos, masks, utility belts, and tie-dye shirts so far. tomorrow is our costume day. i’m captain pink, aka i already have a costume.

but tomorrow is also evaluation day, which i am like insanely nervous about. since i’m the assistant director now, i’ve been helping my director with the staff evaluations, but he does mine on his own. no one has gotten a perfect or near-perfect eval yet, which is why i’m worried. last year i got all 1s except one 2. you see, they aren’t allowed to give perfect evaluations for the first eval, only the second eval at the end of the summer, to indicate “improvement.” so they gave me a 2 in some stupid category, told me that it wasn’t exactly true, and i was happy with that. but i think the director this year is too concerned with showing improvement, so he’s giving out a lot more 2s and 3s than i would have expected. i know this is a stupid thing to get worked up over, but it’s my first year as assistant director — i don’t want to find out that i’m not doing a good job.

oh, and i’m beginning to think i have actually developed an obsessive compulsive disorder.
- i go into work an hour early to sweep and tidy up, even though i don’t get paid for it.
- every time i pass something that’s crooked or disorganized, i stop to fix it. this includes piles of paper on the sign-in table at work, things that have been hung on walls, the game table/staff table/other tables and such at work, and et cetera.
- i noticed when i play battleship that i make subconsciously guesses in a symmetrical pattern, and i sometimes don’t put white pegs in when it upsets this symmetry and instead commit the miss to memory.
- i clean my room every day, multiple times a day. well, not really clean, since it’s not dirty, but i tidy.

basically, i’m slowly going insane.